Hi. My name is Heather. I’m a sugar addict.
There’s really no other way to put. If I could, I would avoid most all foods in favor of simple, melty-in-my mouth sugary foods. Not the good, quality stuff like dark chocolate. And I can’t eat high class pastries and cakes because most of them aren’t gluten-free. But give me anything gummi and coated in sugary crystals and I’ll suck on them until my tongue is covered in sores and my fingers are twitchy with need for more, more, more. It doesn’t matter that I know ahead of time I will end up sick to my stomach and shaky, the experience of rolling those sweets around my mouth is just too precious to ignore. The afternoons are the worst, inevitably somebody at the office has candy and sniffing it out is no challenge. Usually by 3:30 my gut hurts, my head hurts and my inner bitch is more out than not.
It’s a problem.
Today I’ve been sugar free for 8.5 hours. Yup. It’s hard. There is a basket of Hershey miniature sitting just outside of my office. The yoga pants I’ve been stuffing myself into don’t have pockets and the urge to grab a few and sit my corner to consume is ferocious. However. I don’t feel like crap, and that’s rather nice. Also, I don’t feel mean and petty. I’ve read it takes approximately 21-28 days to change a habit. That sort of time span without sugar seems absolutely staggering to me at the moment. No gummi peaches, no chocolate, no sugar in my coffee. Holy crap, I’m itching just thinking of the deprivation.
