Sometimes it seems that everything runs in super fast forward for far too long. The past couple of weeks have been exactly this way. Too much, too many, too often. I am dreaming of silence both in and out of my head.

He child: 0 points (He is gone on a week long raft trip.)
She child: 5 points for bitchiness, 3 points for persistence, 2 points for snottiness (very
different than bitchiness)
Toddler child: 8 points for randomness, 7 points for obstinance, 5 points for cuteness.
Me: 0 points. They won. They kicked my ass to the point [...]

Today I stepped ever so slightly out of my customary box. I went back to school. Well, sort of. I signed up for, and attended, an advanced Photoshop class at the local junior college. But to go out of the house for anything other than a soccer practice pick up after the hour of 6 [...]

After reading Andie’s interview meme where she asked for volunteers for some questions, I uncharacteristicly raised my hand and yelled, “Me! Me! Pick me!” And she did. So here is my effort to answer the questions. A couple of them were pretty hard and kept me awake last night, but I’ll give them a go….
1. [...]

There is a line in the movie About a Boy, yes one of my favorite Hugh Grant preformances, where the central boy character, Marcus, comments on single motherhood. He says that one person is just not enough, you definitely need more than one. Although I have long known this, today it smacked me in the [...]

Loren loves all things Canadian. He wants to travel there, live there and always talk about it. I don’t blame him, there have been many times over the years that I have wanted to abandon this consumer obssessed country and go in search of a more down to earth corner of the world. But I [...]

Today was not only Mother’s Day but it would have also been my 14th wedding anniversary. Would have. Would have had I not divorced him 4 1/2 years ago. Would have had we worked on things. Would have if…blah, blah, blah.
Today my mother and I spent the day alone without my kids. Some of the [...]

It is amazing how beautiful the warmth feels when it finally comes. I forget this fact every year as we trudge through the dark winter months trying to eek out an existence in the cruelty of the cold. I don’t like the long, black nights. I don’t need the snow to feel cozy. I like [...]

Devon has reached that age that were he not so freaking cute, I would stuff him in a box and mail him to a Russian orphanage. Everyday is such a challenge that I am often afraid to get out of bed in the mornings for fear of the knowledge that he will be kicking my [...]

For the most part we are moving on with our lives here at The Manor. With the exception of my bout of panic attacks in March and April, I am really coping quite well with day to day life. But then I read something like this and the tears hit and I just miss him [...]