So I have a friend who I really like. She’s a bit quirky, has her fair share of hang ups. But for the most part we get along really well. She is not somebody I would have chosen for a close friend, to begin with she is 20 years older than me, but our sons [...]

A couple of months ago Loren asked me, “Hey, Mom? Do you have January 24th open?”
Immediately suspicious that not only was he calling me mom rather than Heather, but that he thinking about a point in time beyond the next South Park episode, I replied, “Um, I don’t know. Why?”
“Oh, um,” he stalled. “I was [...]

If somebody had given me one of those movie fast forward clips of my life as it is today when I found myself first pregnant 14 years ago, I would have fallen to the floor laughing so hard that I would have likely miscarried. Then I had fabulous shoes, perky boobs, unlined eyes, free evenings, [...]

There are so few things that a piece of pizza and a cone with sprinkles can’t fix. It was a lovely series of minutes with the two of them. Unfortunately, the toddler within reared its horrid head once we got home and Devon was possessed with demonic energy for nearly three hours. I could [...]

Loren and my mother have an ongoing thing where they lurk throughout the house and scare the hell out of each other. It is a tall house, three floors, with an open area in the middle going up all the floors. This makes for lots of stairs, a couple of balconies and many dark corners.
Loren [...]

Seven months is just too long. I know I should stop waiting for my dad to come home. Because he will never again come home. But I miss him so very much and I keep hoping that this reality of him not being here is some sort of sick twisted joke. He missed Loren turning [...]

I suspect that everybody has a time in their lives that they remember as Golden. That time can be a few years, a few months, or even just a series of days, whatever the case, it is often a memory that keeps a person breathing and standing in times of pain. Now whether or not [...]

I have been anxiously awaiting my bedtime from the moment I opened my eyes this morning. It’s not the depressed-I-can’t-deal-with-anything-in-my-life thing that was me a year ago, but rather an I-just can’t-deal-with-this-day thing. This is my eleventh of twelve days between the stints of time that the kids spend with Matt. And I am burned [...]

Today Devon began his first music lesson. It was a baptismal gift from a dear friend and something I have been really excited about for him. Devon sits at the piano and pounds the keys everyday and spend the majority of his time singing or wiggling his wee flat rump, so the music class seemed [...]

I am sick. Sick in the sort of way that makes my head spin as I walk due to the vertigo that is nestled behind my ears. Sick in a way that causes me to use evey single tissue in the house and fill it with green mucous. And it sucks. I hate being sick. [...]